I was able to get a bunch of free Zuni language reasources :0
Alskfdj my little sister introduced me to her therapist today and she says this is my baba "Tay" (a nickname she's called me since she was a baby) and and this lady I swear to fuckm she asks if that's my indian name
I'd just like to thank the first guy who flirted with me in an explicitly gay way, really flirted some sense into my closeted queer ass
#I mean when a guy calls you cute and you practically die on the spot it's hard to deny your queerness #it took me a couple more years to accept I'm just not attracted to women at all but it was a start #like hope you're doing well wherever you are sorry I never had the guts to flirt back in those two years we sorta knew each other #personal #queer #fox chatters3 notes
It's been really bumming me out lately that I had this argument with my friend.... There was this one YouTuber who made a did you just assume my gender "joke", and when I mentioned this was transphobic to my friend they didn't understand why it was. And I mean that by itself was kinda jarring but I wasn't gonna hold it against them or nothing. So I explained as best I could why it was offensive and how it was being used in context as insulting. Then it just kinda started going downhill..... Like they were trying to argue on why it might not be offensive all the time if used against "oversensitive" or "unreasonable" trans people. Or that making that joke didn't make them transphobic cause they might not have known (when the context it was used in was to highlight how ridiculous something else was by comparing it to trans people). And it was just.... Wow. At that point I was pretty upset so I told them I was gonna take a break to chill out and then come back. Mostly cause I didn't want to snap at them or be harsh. And the whole time it seemed like they just didn't understand why I was irritated. When I did come back with a better plan for articulating myself and what I wanted to address I didn't even get a chance, they completely blew me off and started telling me about their cat in the same sentence... I just, I feel awful about the whole interaction and frankly I'm still pretty upset. I don't want it to just fester, but I don't know how to bring it up again and make it clear how serious it is to me. We've been best friends since we were six and we've never had an argument that I remember. Plus I've been out to them since I was 14 and they've been supportive. I've been processing this for like 3 weeks and I want to give them the benefit of the doubt but I honestly can't wrap my head around it. It just really sucks coming from my oldest and only friend...
What apparently the school district I would've been in for high school started a zuni language program like 3 years after I dropped out... I would've loved to have taken it
#not that I could've survived high school but yknow... #I'd at least like to know how to spell more than two words so I dont have to resort to calling my uhhh grandfather grandfather when I've never in my life called him that... #I mean I'm sure my hotda would love to teach me more if I were to ask #anyway I missed the boat for high school but still that's pretty cool #personal #terra talks to the void1 note
The age of self repression has ended now I buy narwhal squishes, blueberry scented unicorn plushies, and squishmallows because they're cute and sensory and I like them
12 hour day of moving heavy boxes and furniture will really make you realize how out of shape you are....
#I was helping a family member move and oh boy #glad I could help but my legs feellll uh bad #I certainly do not have my horse riding muscles of yore #at least I wasnt asked to help move all the big furniture #I suck with couches and stuff I'm uncoordinated and got weak arms #personal #terra talks to the void2 notes
I've avoided doctors for years but I decided to look for one again and damn I'm glad I did cause I had an amazing experience. The place I went to used to be a queer focused clinic but now they're more of an all around healthcare practice. So I mean I was hopeful but I wasnt sure how far from that they'd moved. But yknow that experience when you walk into space you know is safe and you can be out? It was absolutely that. There were pronoun stickers on the desk, everyone asked me my pronouns, they were even part of my patient profile. The intake forms asked my gender which I could fill in or choose from a dropdown and one of the dropdown options was genderqueer, they also let me decline to answer sex at birth. All the medical info posters and stuff you typically find in doctors offices were inclusive and plenty were aimed at queer people specifically. It was just woah, I'm used to feeling out of place in doctors offices not included and especially not like my being trans is no big deal.
Wow who would've guessed trypophobia could have an auditory trigger.....
Lmao sometimes I think back to the first asshole endocrinologist I went to when I was 13 she was the only one in the state even willing to see minors and she told me I had unrealistic expectations of hrt and it wouldn't change much, that no doctor was allowed to prescribe it to me under 16, and that my mother would never change her mind to agree and that wasn't unreasonable of her. I'd like to tell her that I did in fact find a doctor willing to treat me at 14, that my mom did agree and is in fact a decent ally now, that hrt did everything I hoped it would and more, and that I'm so incredibly happy I ignored her and that she got her ignorance & transphobia out of trans care <3
I've been trying to change part of my routine for over a year and I cant get it to stick but I also cant find any advice because all of it is either aimed at parents of little kids or adults who are able to do way more than me (have jobs, family, go to school ect.) And it's really frustrating tbh
Yknow I may know fuck all about math or science but at least I'm not a high school senior suffering through another year of homework and classes like I could be right now...
Whenever my dad leaves town I go absolutely off the rails like it's the middle of the night where I am and I just finished cleaning my bathroom and now I'm like "hmmm spa time"
#I ate a whole pizza for lunch when I woke up at noon #I've played 30 hours of fire emblem in two days #send help #I still keep my routines though because adhd says so #if only my routines were time based #instead it's like do this thing when you do this thing or relative to that thing #or perish #personal #terra talks to the void3 notes
I just realized my racist white grandma doesn't speak to me anymore and i don't have to take part in Thanksgiving this year fuck colonialism
#She was one of those 'my great great grandma was a Cherokee princess!' types #but would also say all sorts of anti native racist shit #never forget the time she took a dna test that told her she was 100% white and she threw like a three month tantrum about how she knew she had 'indian blood' #ah but peace at last #personal #terra talks to the void1 note
I wish my new glasses script would get here so i could see again...
Hnnnnnn so I'm getting referred for an asd evaluation and similarly to when I was getting diagnosed with adhd I have to fill out a form full if super confusing questions like "what was your childhood like?" I? Dont know? What part?? Uggghhhhh and the very first question is "What is you biological sex?" Like who wants to know? It's none of your business? Why the fuck are you asking?
Hate that thing where my brain stops cooperating with my mouth and I just can't speak like I still have words! I'd like to say them but I just cant figure out how to do it and trying to make myself is so exhausting and frustrating I'd really rather not but people still expect me to and get mad when I don't...